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I woke up this morning and feeling great 'cause it's my birthday, baby! I'm 22 today! **which is surely a total lie but could you just please let me pretend that I'm 22? :)))

Not that I want to discuss my birthday because what I think is, when you get older, you don't get many greetings compared than when you were a child. Don't know why, I thought Facebook reminder helps us, but yeah, I don't even care. Correction: I received a lot of greetings, like really A LOT. Thank you so much!!!!! -- It's not (just) the greeting but the reflection of yourself. Because the most important thing is, you get closer to death, so then you have to make sure that you are also getting closer to God. That's all.

Anyway, I just had a super amazing week with 7^th grade students from Stamford American International School, Singapore. They visited Yogyakarta for an experiential learning with JUMP! Foundation. JUMP! Foundation itself is a bunch of cool people who facilitate programs for kids and teachers development. They're so awesome I don't even regret to skip the classes for a week, LOL.

But, at the other side, I also let go two things that, for me, are very important. When I decided to get back to school, I had a plan to hold an international seminar and attend as many as conferences that I can. At the first semester, I wanted to adapt and checked how's the things go on, so I just discussed the seminar plan with my classmates. When the next semester started, I know I can handle more than school assignments so I gathered my friends and talk about the seminar. But I don't need more time to figure out that the seminar is the idea of myself and no one as excited as me. Weeks after, I still try convincing myself that this seminar is possible to be held. We will be good, I whispered to myself. However, at one point, I gave up. I realize that everybody in the class has his/her own vision for what he/she wants to do during college time and it's totally fine. So, I stepped back and cancel the plan. Nobody response, though – that was quite hurts but yeah, I'm alright to know it sooner than later.

About the conference, it's another 'problem' because I don't have some time to consult to the adviser – I don't even have one because I'm not sure who to look for. But I found a conference that fits on my interest, and I already wrote a research. However, I had to choose between attending the conference or Ubud Writers and Readers Festival – so you can guess what I prefer for.

I have written this very often now: you can be everything, but you can't be everything at once.

So I learned over and over again, that there will always time for everything - or sometimes it's not everything, but a thing or two that really really matters.

This year has been amazing for me, and this can be happening because I try to focus on what I really want to do. I have declined some offers that actually interesting, but I know it's not a good thing to be distracted a lot.

God has given me some great opportunities that make me who I am today. So then, the lesson for this year and ahead is: don't be a greedy person. You know what you want, you are good at what you do (and getting better), so it's great enough for now and you have to wait patiently until the time you feel you need something new. Don't grab everything that comes to your door just because you want to look productive, but do one thing that will makes you grateful.

Hopefully it will be an important lesson for you who read it, and have a nice weekend!

Lots of love,

Prima